It’s funny how I liked being me the most,
The horror of an end terrified me as the time passed away,
Every second was being counted and was being collected as history,
A history that we shared and lived together,
Every day added up as a new memory,
You know that you want new memories, long lasting memories and you try so hard to make them,
I became someone I didn’t like to be,
It’s funny how I liked being me the most and suddenly I don’t,
There’s nothing more disturbing then recalling an old memory that caused excruciating pain,
Still, I loved recalling those and I will forever,
Hurt is good, reminds me of you and always will,
And the one thing that I like the most now is not being me,
And the worst thing that I find is to prepare yourself for the lie,
It’s crazy how this volcano inside me want’s to erupt so badly,
Betrayal causes you to be a person you never wish to be,
And finally it gets to the point where it seemed like nothing matters because I’m not a real person and neither anyone else is,
And from now onwards I assure you that I’ll be EVERYTHING I’M NOT.
HOPE
It came like a cool wind passing through her hair… when she lost everything… it was there…
Waiting for a blink of her phone … time passed in desperation and it never came… and it was gone…
In a fraction of second … her phone blinked after ages and then there was hope…
It came back … it keeps coming back and it will always…
A thought that she just might be an option when needed never really came to her mind … the phone blink used to make her forget everything… every while… all the time…
A tinge of a conversation excited her so much… she couldn’t stop blushing… it was all joy every where and then there was hope….
It came back … it keeps coming back and it will always…
Time passed by and things happened gradually but she waited so patiently and never complained…
A thought that she just might be a friend to him and nothing more than that never really came to her mind…
A little longer affectionate conversation made her smile and fall for him without even thinking…and then there was hope…
It came back … it keeps coming back and it will always…
In all this time she was hurt innumerable times, lost her own identity, changed her own priorities and she loved a person beyond infinity…
And when she looked back, there was just one companion … it was hope… the minute she thought she lost it… it kept coming back… there was no reason to complain as it made her feel better even if the experience was a pain…
Well… but this time she lost it… She lost too much and now its time to lose the right thing from a wrong person and that’s Hope…
Sitting in a corner… crying silently…trying to assemble herself… she tried to get up…and there was a blink on her phone….
And then there was HOPE….
It came back … it keeps coming back and it will always…!
SADNESS
Thousands of cries…. tears in those eyes….
Sadness dominating each emotion … seemed to be a success…
Seeing the moon glazing from my window… I struggled to concentrate….
Is this sadness? …. A heart break it is… a feeling of unwanted presence…
Seems to be loss of humanity and lack of love…
When i asked myself what is sadness?…
My heart took a break from my break down…
Seeing a pretty little flower getting dried up and there’s nothing you could do about it is sadness…
Seeing a dead dog right in the middle of the road and people riding bikes and cars over it… and all you can do is just ride sideways and do nothing about it is sadness….
Seeing a news of a small girl being raped and imagining her pitiful situation and being able to do nothing about it to actually change it is sadness….
Seeing a real handicapped beggar as you walk by a beautiful street … and by feeling his pain you give him some money and in return he joins his hands and bends down to thank him…. and you cannot reduce his pain and actually do anything about it is sadness….
Seeing people bribe each other and you are being taught how to do that task and you become a part of a system against your will and you can’t really do anything about it is sadness….
Innumerable pains and sorrows in the world… from which we all run away and focus on a small little sorrow which is negligible to this huge mother earth of ours…
Seems like a dream when we see all the people laughing….
Maybe its just a matter of priorities… Everybody finds their own problem the biggest ….
For a while… lets look at the bigger picture and forget our own issues and respect all the creatures and human beings that go through a lot more than we do….
The feeling that you experience after finally imagining all the above situations is actual sorrow… is actually SADNESS….
She says NO
I say, ‘I love you’ but she says, ‘No’….
I wonder what this NO was about….
Our frequencies matched up which was a very rare case for me….. but i wonder why she always said, ‘Let me be’….
I never questioned back but kept loving her, i never turned back and searched for that one smile of her, i never gave up to see even the smallest glimpse of you….
I say, ‘I love you’ but she says, ‘NO’
Im i that bad that you won’t even look back at me…. im i that ugly that you even stopped spending time with me….
This silence of yours is not gona work…. i want answers…. i want answers satisfying my questions…..
Despite of all this i kept loving her and wondered what was the issue….
I say, ‘I love you’ but she says, ‘NO’….
What was that all about? Know me well and then just leave me without you which is hell…
This is not the way its supposed to be…. and i am all alone in a place blacked out with nothing but darkness to see….
All the promises you made were all in vain or is there any scope for them to regain….
This silence of yours is not gona work…. i want answers…. i want answers satisfying my questions….
I say, ‘I love you’ but you say, ‘NO’…
Then what this all about….?
Struggle to see her glimpse was successful and what i saw was something i could not forget ever….. and which i expected never….
Her beautiful hair was just not there and her pretty face was pale with a bald head…. And all she could do is just tears to shed….
I cursed myself for all that i thought…. as for her i would have done anything i could not….
Seems like her struggle was much much harder….
All the promises that you made were not in vain…. you had a big heart to even do it in so much pain….
Cancer got you before i could get you…. Now…. does it makes sense if i say i love you….
I still love you no matter what…. and i will stand by you even if your caught….
Fight and come back to me…. i need you…. please stay as long as you can…. i plead you….
I say, ‘I love you’ but she says, ‘NO’….
and now i know what was it about…. but this NO gave me immense happiness of her love towards me…. and she set me free…
But she did not know that i was all about her….. then how could i make her suffer….
Baby… i love you…. and always will…. ❤
ATTRACTION
Those creepy eyes stalking him everywhere…. testing my patience… where would he have been there?
Enormous hiding, heart residing, colors glooming and everything blooming….
Simply connecting like two magnetic poles, i was getting pulled towards him….
Excitement caused experiencing the butterfly moment like i have literally started liking my opponent…
Scared to share it with anyone, hiding my face at home like i date No One….
Accept the fact that i am 18 and i might undergo some hormonal changes… but my parents think about only till a limit where marriage ranges…
Why don’t they understand that its ok to like someone but not get married to, its ok to meet someone but not spend the whole life,its ok to talk to someone and start liking him…
We as this generation….. scared of sharing a date with a random guy…. why don’t we just talk to our parents and just let the fear fly…. instead of giving out a cry…. we could just give it a try…
Make them understand that there’s a lot more than only marriage, there’s lot more we have with in us to share with them….
The moment we introduce someone, our parents feel like we are gona marry that one…
Why is it that its such a huge gap between the people who actually raised you….. why is it that you have to hide a date you had with a random guy…. why is that you always have to lie….?
Yes, i might like a guy whom i just saw….. yes, i would really love to tell you about him mom but before making assumptions just hear me out once….. because i have to tell you tons….
Yes…. this is called ATTRACTION mom which is normal….. and i think its OK to get attracted to someone before giving it a tag of love…… because i believe there’s no one beneath or above…..
SOUND
She came walking by the streets in a hurry to reach her home and rang the bell….
‘Sounds’, we say are a very fascinating thing….
sounds of birds chirping, sounds of people laughing, music we listen to….
but when she reached home she could just listen to a obnoxious sound coming from that one room which she generally did not like to enter….
Her dad’s voice being dominant and her mom being endurable was the only state she had ever seen her parents…
Does that one drink do so much harm to anyone?, was a question that came to her mind… Will my dad never stop fighting? Will my mom ever be happy?
She never knew what a normal family looks like as she was expected to get matured at a very early age….
The flames of that fiery sound would even touch her sometimes and her mom defended her like nobody did taking up all the flames to herself…
Expectations of wants being fulfilled was far away as she had to struggle even for her needs…
Seeing her mom working in these devastated conditions took away her feeling of ecstasy…
Days passed on and things didn’t change but now she decided to change as it was enough….
Sounds which she hated became worse day by day…. being a daughter made her struggle harder then she expected…..
People generally struggle for a luxurious life whereas she did for a normal life…
At that moment she decided to herself to raise up and fight against her life…
Life knocks us down but that is the time given to you to rise up again and achieve what you want…
She had fire in her eyes and strength in her believes…
Aim high to live high and jus let the fear fly… Moved by her decisions, her mom was proud of her and could finally smile…
And the tears said, ‘Not all the sounds are meant to be heard and all of that sadness just got blurred’….. ❣️
CONFIDENCE
There she was sitting on the couch, thinking about when will she meet him…. Tired of thinking and stalking him with the others, she finally began to search him and imagine him with her….. Doing all the same old daily shit nothing was changed, but yet he was the one missing in all of that […]
CONFIDENCE
There she was sitting on the couch, thinking about when will she meet him….
Tired of thinking and stalking him with the others, she finally began to search him and imagine him with her…..
Doing all the same old daily shit nothing was changed, but yet he was the one missing in all of that shit….
She missed him soo badly that she decided to make him her life partner….
Listening to all the bullshit people say, she was losing him more and more….
But one fine day she got up and her inner voice said, “Follow your heart”…
Now missing him had almost become a habit, she regretted the feeling that why did she even lose him…..
Shouting on the top of her voice, her inner voice spoke to her, “You don’t need to think what others will think” and she finally listened to that voice…..
Well….. getting ready is liked by each girl but today was something new,…today was the day she was finally going to meet him….
She looked in the mirror and her inner voice said, “Your not perfect but you are now, definitely You…… ”
She met him finally and that was the happiest moment of her life, yes…. it was definitely…..
A girl whose presence din’t even matter was being noticed by everyone….
People started wondering what happened to her, what does she even have…..
And she answered I have him…… Yes she said I have my CONFIDENCE with me, who will stay with me forever and ever till the day I die…..😇
IS THIS CALLED LOVE?
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IS THIS CALLED LOVE?
Sunshine glam shining on me, eager to meet him for the first time…
Will he even like me? I wondered, i wasn’t this nervous even to take my school result…
Am i looking fine? I agree i am not that pretty but then what else should i do to keep him interested….
In all of this mess, my mind wondered … ‘why are you even thinking soo much?’ On the other side my heart defended me… ‘ because i like him…’
And finally there he was, walking towards me with an attitude…. which was again attractive…
I observed him from top to bottom, felt like just looking at him but eventually controlled my emotions….
We spoke for a long time, and i tried to attract him with all those graceful moves usually a girl does….
He started staring at me as we had a pause in our talk….
I felt my heart beating to the top most rate and my inner voice shouting at me… ‘stay calm’…
And finally he said, ‘Be as you are … because you are beautiful for me no matter what others say’…
I felt like i should just hug him and sit for a long time, but then i thought … no that would be desperate….
And in the next fraction of second… he did it…
It just felt like…. yes he is the one, i feel like started falling for him…
IS THIS CALLED LOVE?
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